Original post on facebook on Sep 4th 2017
The Lord’s message to me and many: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NO2L32xVP8&feature=share
“ May the wisdom of the Lord move our hearts to follow His counsels in all things. Amen The Lord has brought home to me the absolute necessity of knowing myself. There are many broken and lost souls in this world who have not been able to come to terms with themselves in this life. They don't know who they are, what they've been sent here to do. Or why things keep failing on them. And if we can go through the Lord’s formation of our lives, we will be able to help others. So, tonight He gave me some new insights into what we are facing when we decide to know ourselves—truly, as He knows us.
Jesus began, "My people, there is no greater work than coming to know yourself. Aside from coming to know Me. From birth onward, you are conditioned by the words of those who care—or care not—for you. Parents are feeding their children much of their own viewpoint of the world. They project upon their children the very things they hoped and dreamt they could be; or their negative, failure-influenced view of the world and of you. "To Me, you are the most beautiful of My creation, perfect in all respects—until you are twisted by those who do not know Me or themselves. They set the direction for your lives by their fears, expectations, their experiences, their failures and successes. So, there is a natural bias in any family that is projected on to you from childhood and even birth. "Then you step out into the world from under the shelter of your family life, and the world slaps you down. People disappoint, deceive, steal and lie and if you haven’t experienced that in your family, it is quite a shock. Then there are others, few and far between, who are kind and always have good things to say to build you up. "So, please take all this into consideration. YOU ARE NOT ANYTHING ANYONE HAS TOLD YOU, YOU ARE. Your task is to uncover the real you, and I promise you—you cannot do it without Me. I will show you the Love and the gentle correction and truth that you need to embrace and blossom into who I created you to be. "You will discover these things with Me in your quiet times, and even in your day-to-day life, if you are looking and listening for Me in every event. Not one thing passes in your lives without My presence and My permission. Everything is ordained to be a lesson—but to perceive it, you must listen very carefully. "For some, I will send a soul I, Myself, have formed, who will also be of help to you in discovering yourself. They will be loving and willing to take the time to help you find your way. These, however, are rare opportunities that very few ever get. When you encounter one of these, you will have one of two reactions: loving acceptance and a teachable spirit. Or resentment and a built-in resistance to everything they tell you. "The second reaction is the old sin nature that comes with a soul when they are born. It is the self-preservation instinct—whether it be a need to have more money, more food, more friends; more, more, more. More control. More power over others in situations. Or the need to feel important and protect the weaknesses inside of you that you’ve been running from for years. "For those in this state, it will be extremely painful to be in the presence of a guiding soul. You will feel threatened at the level of your whole being. Your foundations laid to survive the world will be cracked and falling apart; the sense of vulnerability and fear of losing the image you have been holding on to in order to survive in the world...crumble. Your very existence will be threatened. "Some of you already know this has to happen, because your life has not blossomed; something is very wrong; because nothing has developed into anything solid. Rather, you have gone from disappointment to disappointment, rejection and failure. "These failures will reinforce your need to close off to people and protect yourself. And one of the arguments the enemy will use is, 'They don’t understand you. You are special, you're different, deeper than they are.' Let Me caution you here, children—this is the lie from Satan to continue to cut off all the roads to your happiness and success in life. Situations go sour because no one understands you... or so you are told. This causes you to insulate yourself even more with layers of lies about how different, how special you are and that the world is not good enough for you. "Satan plays on your vanity and insecurity. He builds blind spots into your personality, so you cannot see what YOU are responsible for, in situations that fail. This is done to further isolate you from the truth about yourself and make you more defensive and judgmental of others." He's trying to cut us off at that point, guys. He's trying to isolate us, because it's so much easier to bring an isolated soul down than it is that runs in the protective corral with the other sheep. Jesus went on, "Let Me assure you, you are fearfully and wonderfully made; full of gifts and abilities I put there to cause you to blossom into the abundant life I ordained for you from the foundation of the world. But those around you are also fearfully and wonderfully made, as well. They have suffered life’s bruises and bumps as you have. Some have opted for the lie that they were too special for the world... and misunderstood. "Yes, that is in part true, because you were made for Me and for Heaven and this world can be a terrible place. But as long as you are living your father’s or mother’s vision of who you are, you will not know yourself. You discover yourself through Me, spending time with Me. Reading and understanding the Scriptures, seeing how I dealt with people in the past, seeing what true virtue and true wickedness are. And in the process of doing that, being profoundly honest with yourself, asking important questions, 'Lord, am I like that? Lord, do I do that?' "I promise that when you ask in that way, the answer will not be long in coming. I am eager to love you and to educate you about who I am, who you are—and who you are not. Part of My eagerness is to prepare you to face the deadly traps set for you every day by the enemy. If you know who you are, and what your weaknesses are, how you are likely to get caught in a trap... In short, if you know yourself as well as the demons know you, you have a fighting chance—as long as you cleave to Me with all your heart, strength and understanding. "But if you think you can do it all on your own? You will live a life of disappointment and failure, questioning why things are so difficult and falling apart. It is because you do not know yourself—and Satan does. You do not have the life skills to out-smart him. But I do. And until you make up your mind to give Me total control of your life and put yourself under My instruction, seeking to discover the good, the bad and the ugly about yourself, you will wander in circles wondering what you were supposed to do with your life. And much of the potential and talent that lies within you, untapped, will wither and grow old as you go from one struggle to the next just to make ends meet and stay alive. "I am offering you a better way. A way that will lead to success and fulfillment. A way that will lead to joy and meaning in your life and to those around you. Because you will continue to blossom, put forth sweet fruit and enrich your world." By the way, guys, here He's not talking about the prosperity gospel. He's talking about the fullness of life. Jesus continued, "For this to happen, you must be brave and challenge the premises your life has been built on. You must be able to see what worked in your life and what didn’t work. You must be ready and willing to change those things that didn’t work, repent and confess the wrongs you did to yourself and others. You must be willing to be taken apart, bit by bit, and put back together again by My loving and merciful hands. "I will do away with the old, the hurtful, the failed ways of the past. I will heal and rebuild you into the glorious creature I intended you to be. Glorious, not as the world perceives it, but as I perceive it. Your greatest feelings will be profound peace and confidence that God is in control and you have nothing to fear, because He turns all things to good. And if you are fortunate enough to be given access to one who has already made that journey, happy you will be if you follow their counsel."
>>>>>>>>Many people have not heard my life story yet, I wrote in Chinese before, but never in English. So I will tell you about my life here, my family education when I was in China.
In other people’s eye, my parents are very good, well educated people, they love me so much. Many will adore me born in such a family. However, they can only see the outside cover, but never inside which is far from love with so many pains. Even my relatives never know my young age life. Both my parents disliked me since I just had a memory about 2-3 years old. Most of time, I remembered anger, shouts, cold, laugh onto myself. So, I always have concerns why they do not understand me? Why my parents laugh at me? Why they just did not tell me what should I do, where I did wrong? Why they so strange, so far from me? I had very little love from my parents, because they were very busy in works, as well they did not like kids.
My father had very bad temper in his whole life. When I was young, I feared him a lot, because he always yelled to me. Many times, he lashed me by a rod or a waist belt, while shout to me ‘have you know you are wrong?’ I always say ‘yes, I know’. But, I lied by saying so, because I never know what I did wrong, and he never tell me why he beat me. So, I was very angry in heart years after years, but never had a braveness to ask my father.
This kind of things happened a lot before 6 years old. At the beginning, I forgave my parents, but when I grew bigger, I had a rejection feeling more and more common and strong. I really disliked my parents, and felt far far away from them in heart. My father always planned my life for me, but never ask my own wish. Most of time, his acts were all wrong, but I did not know how to correct him and can not reject him. For example, when I was 6, in grade 1, at the beginning of the 2nd half semester, one day my father was very happy to ask my give a free gift to my teacher, that was a calendar. Even though I disliked this kind of behavior in heart, I still can not reject my father, because I did not know how to say it, and I always feared to reject his order. Then, I did it as father’s order. This is called bribe, I know it now. It will cause sins by breaking the virtue standard.
The biggest sin I made which caused me being deceived by Adam happened in year 2000, when I rose up to high school. I used to be an athlete for 3 years in middle school, not professional, but just received training from a professional coach. On the 3rd year of middle school, I was very sad, in deep depression feelings. I did not know what really happened on me. My father saw me, he never asked me, then made decision himself. He thought I was in depression on finding a good high school. So he found a professional athlete to participate in city sport competition in my name. Then, I had a good fake record in my own name to apply a good high school. He spent all his hard works on cheating and stealing from other’s benefit by the reason of ‘loving me’. He never feel sorry on his Satanism behavior until now.
Unfortunately, I accepted this false record and high school even though I knew he did wrong. Because I was fear to reject my father, in order to avoid he beating me. I always tell myself, I did not mean it, it was not my reason to cheat, I just be piety to follow my father’s will……….. However, my self-righteousness can never let me escape from great sins, karma, guilty from participating of criminalism ……..
This is how satan set trap for me, let me make sins without my control, then used my sins to let me make more and more sins that I can never escape from Hell. This is why I choose wrong road after I come to Canada. Because I caused other person can not go to a desired high school, then my sins made myself to pay for it.
When I applied university in Mississauge high school in 2004, I only received 2 offers in my life. One is in U of Toronto St George campus in downtown Toronto, the other one is in Mississauga campus at far west of the city. Then I must choose 1 out of 2. The correct one is Mississauga campus, study commerce program, which is God chose for me. However, I decided to go to Toronto campus, where I met Adam in spring 2005.
Adam deceived me by stealing my first love out of God, and cheated me to pay my life onto himself. I was deceived with full trust on him with all my heart. Even after many years, I still can not believe he cheated me, I still believe one day he will come back to me. I still wait for his answer years after years, since he left suddenly without a reason to me.
For how many times in my life, I tell myself if he can confess he was wrong, then I will forgive him. However, he never think he did wrong, neither USA Falun Dafa practitioners. Instead, what I only received is blaming and laughing from same people as me called Falun Dafa practitioners. This is a major reason why I choose not to go to USA in my rest of life.
This is why the salvation of meeting Messiah should start from 2012, but all nations did not meet this day after years and years of waiting. Now, time has been past, chances has been wasted. There is no time left. War and death becomes the only way to wake up all 7 billion people. This is the process. The root of sins is still on myself, because of my deceiving on others, caused the same punishment back to myself. This great sin leads me walk on one error after another error, repeated again and again.
Yes, I am a sinful woman. I confess I am the representative of evilness. I deserve no mercy. My sin caused the happening of 911, this is how the kingdom of darkness uses me as their reasons for their wishes. It is not me caused USA sinned greatly, but it is definitely my reason caused USA lost its chance to be saved on time.
The even greater sin I made was after I met Adam. I wanted to help Adam to promote thing I wanted to do in Toronto group, but got rejection within Toronto Dafa practitioners. Those leaders blamed me hardly which I can not accept their reason. Also, Adam told me bad words on these leaders. Then, I deceived the whole group that those leaders were people from the kingdom of darkness.
After my hard work pressing, the Toronto flock had been divided into pieces. This is the major reason caused the power of salvation can not reach its goal any more after 2005. This is why so many nations can not be saved till now. It is the reason of me. Now you all know the reason.